I watched Eat Pray Love last night

"People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master..."
— Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love) What I'm wondering is, are there really multiple soul mates, I like this way of looking at it very much, but then I wonder is this just a cop out for 2 people that were too stubourn to work it out for now and they will eventually be together, or maybe one of them didn't want to open up in this life.  I have this idea that when our souls go to heaven if they are not whole on learning everything they needed to know in this life then they come back to face the challenges they need conquer, furthermore when you are choosing these challenges perhaps your soulmate and you decide we are going to fight to be together and lets see if we can overcome.  This all gives meaning to me as to why do some get cancer, why are some born rich and why does a healthy person get a horrible disease?  There are a million questions like this.  I have a lot of regrets I need to let go of and I feel if I really truly just live by what I believe I can probably avoid more heartache... so we will see, I will keep you posted. : )

One of my favorite quotes

Captain Corelli's Mandolin (2001)

Iannis: When you fall in love, it is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake, and then it subsides. And when it subsides, you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots are become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the desire to mate every second of the day. It is not lying awake at night imagining that he is kissing every part of your body. No... don't blush. I am telling you some truths. For that is just being in love; which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over, when being in love has burned away. Doesn't sound very exciting, does it? But it is!

Hello All

I love looking at life through my childrens eyes, everything is so simple.  My three year old was waiting for us to go to the pool and he was asked by one of my friends why he was wearing a swimsuit, his responce was, well I can't be naked.  So cute they remind me why I keep going everyday and why I am trying to finish school.  So I can enjoy each and every moment doing things with them.

Meditation

I am finding meditation to be a very useful tool when I can not fall asleep.  What keeps me up is not having enough time in the day to get everything I want to, done.  So as I lay in bed, knowing I need to get rest so I can be at my best in the morning, I start with deep belly breathes.  I place one hand on my tummy and one on my chest.  I make sure the hand on the stomach is the only one moving.  Then as I lay there nice and warm under the covers I picture myslf on a nice warm beach just relaxing feeling the warm sun, and I let the feeling of just being at the beach take over me.  I then focus on nothing but the dark my eyelids create........and I am asleep.

Starting Fresh

I just got some terrible news that one of my best friends mom just died.  I feel so bad for him.  I hope he told her he loved her when he last saw her this morning.  I want to take this moment to remind everyone including myself to live each moment as if it were your last.  Do not sweat the small stuff, enjoy each moment and do not forget to tell the people around you how much you love and cherish them.  God bless you all.  Make the best of this New Year!!